from a 9week old mama

dr. Fatimah and ashraff's first pic taken...all i could see from where i was
blue blue baby

when he gets his milk late....siggghhh

4th march 2009

i guess i started the counting by weeks during my pregnancy and so the habit goes. it doesnt help either now that i also have the week by weekof baby progress by my nite table, religiously following per week..not a week ahead or less.. ha ha ha..

has reality really bite in?

to be honest im not sure...i havent had a breakdown like i use to when things become too much for me..or having that 'i need to runAway' feeling..

i feel calmer and relaxed having ashraff in my life..definitely not what i expected

so wht does this 9week old mama want to share:

(i) makna sebenar kesyukuran- ashraff came against all odds. i consider myself a very lucky highRisk Pregnant mother.. and i thank Allah everyday for this..of all the things that i've done wrong, i must've done something right to deserve this..alhamdulilah

(ii) waking up for the baby is tiring but its ok - ashraff doesnt knw yet whether its morning or nite, so i can never be mad at him for his cry in the nite for milk or a change of diaper, or his deep sleep in the afternoon, when im all hypedOut to teach him something off the Babydev Book.. ( ",)..

(iii)sleep when the baby does- oh this is the best advice ever!!

(iv) babyPoo has the worst smell ever!uweeekkk!! nasib baik bau baby is relaxing he he he..

(v)all i could think of is ashraff! i miss him when im at the office, i wonder wht is he doing when im out and around town. i rush home as soon as i can...i bring photos of him everywhere i go..sigghhh

one things for sure,

im still me.

i still hate durians. i still bitchFit whenever i need to. i still go for impluseShopping and am aiming to fill up my closet with as much handbags as i can!be it the original one or the fakes!!(sorry yang, u married a Hbag-aholic! he he he) ..

maybe ive changed ( a little bit) on my priorities in life..

i have more reason to live , to save up money, to invest, to plan for the future, to be more selfless, to love..

its funny tho that only now that i found out the meaning of my full name, on my burfday, i came across the bigBook of names and for the hell of it, looked up for my name

- it means : p u r e Happiness :Ironically that is the feeling im having right now.

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